Reading through old conversations on the ever old MySpace website. It’s crazy to me how open I used to be with anyone. Reading through those old messages and how easy it seemed to be for me to tell you my every thought. It was apparent at some points I didn’t want to say what I wanted to tell you, but I eventually broke and told you. To look at myself today I can’t share anything with anyone like I shared with you those many years ago. I want to be able to be that open with someone again, it’s obvious I could be so open with you because of how much I love you, but even today it’s even harder for me to share my feelings and thoughts with you- because of how much I love you. I think the last time I was so open with anyone was the day you told me you’d found someone else that you wanted to be with for a while. That day I closed my heart. I’ve held onto your “I’ll wait for you forever” promise you made years ago. It’s obvious to me now no one should make a promise like that, they only work in the movies. Your intentions were real at that moment but it’s such a hard promise to keep, and I know that now. I don’t blame you for promising me that, I blame myself for holding onto it so much. It wasn’t until I most recently read through those messages I think I finally let that promise go. It helps knowing that I’ll always hold a special place in your heart since I know that you’ll always hold my entire heart. I just wish I was as open with you as I used to be, so I could tell you that. Maybe then I could have some of it back. But I feel like I want you to hold it, cause as much as it hurts, I know you’ll protect it.